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We can make it through anything

Things on the home front with Ray and I are doing great. I'm really trying not to go backwards in my old habits of shutting down when issues may arise. I have done that for the longest time since I was a kid. I know where this comes from but not willing to share it on this forum. I could use a professional to talk about how to overcome this bad habit. Though luckily I don't do that as often as I use to. Simply because Ray and I have great communication and talk about everything. It is exactly what I want in a relationship.

I know that he is on another subject annoyed or frustrated that I hadn't been working. It is definitely not by choice. I so crave a job like a fat kid craves a chocolate cake. There are so many things that I want to do with Ray like simply, going to movies, dinners, hanging out with friends, concerts, events, night out, date nights hell just not having to rob peter to pay Paul would be nice. I have already starting looking for apartments for us when the time comes when we need to move out. Sure some may not be in the best of neighborhoods but that is just simply because I don't know Baltimore all that well :) I just want to work so bad so we can do these things and afford out own place and have enough left over to have some fun too :)

It can't last forever and it is a matter of time before a job comes along. I just hope that it is sooner then later. I'm not even picky what kind of job that I want. I just want to make enough to take the burden off Ray as much as possible. I can see such a bright future for Ray and I and having a job will help to say the least.

There is no other person but Ray that I want to be with. I don't care if we were broke poor I have nothing but love for this man and want to be with him for a long time. Even the idea to marry him if the state of Maryland passes the law next session. I just simply can't verbalize how much I'm into him and what he means to me. I know sometimes he may wonder why I am with him but in my mind it is simple: I love this man with all that I am. If we can make it past this rough patch we can make it through anything.

I love you baby



October 2012

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