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So tired of being tired

Wow.... another job opportunity gone by the waste side. I am so tired of being tired. I mean really when will my break come?! (Tears)
All I want is a fucking JOB to pay my bills and help out Ray and build a future together but it just seems that the universe doesn't want to make it happen. I spend every day looking hours on end for work via internet, temp agencies, going to places and can't find shit! I even applied for Mc donalds and Wal-IMart for god's sake and can't even get a job there! WTF?

I just want to pull my share of the weight around here and take off the burden from Ray. I mean really is that too fucking much to ask for? I'm so sick of it! I don't really know how much more I can take. This is why I never approached guys because rejection sucks...LOL I use to believe that if one door closes another one opens but holy shit batman how many more doors have to close?! Now we are really screwed and I feel like the biggest loser and I just don't know what more to do.

I feel like just living under a bridge in a card board box and say the hell with it all! I'm really trying not to sound like Debbie downer but this is getting out of hand. Something has to give like yesterday or I'm going to flip the fuck out!!! I love Ray so much and I want to make him so proud of me by getting a job to help out. This is breaking my heart that I can't seem to get one. When will this change? If I knew the answer to that I would be rich and wouldn't need a stupid ass job!


Ah, man -- I don't have anything to suggest. But you know I wish you lads well.

Love and companionship make this life tolerable. Watching you two find a way to preserve those... gives me hope.
Your support of us is awesome. It makes things easier for us :) I know a job will come along but the quicker the better.

October 2012

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